I m back to school again. Annur is going to be 25 this october. Im reward myself as a brave person. Brave enough to be full time student together with younger friends. Not 1 or 2 years gap, but 5 to 6 years younger than myself. To pursue a scroll of degree is not easy as ABC. i have to undergo 3 years of learning here. Not only to graduate with flying colors, but to be proud with quality im gonna put in together in my resume in the future. Alhamdulillah, praise to Allah SWT, I manage to secure a place in UTM. One of the top Uni in Malaysia, and even ranked at 190th place worldwide. how proud am I? My mom? My dad? There must be soooo proud of me.
So i have to keep my promise to them. To excel. To be good in what ever i do. InsyAllah.
I step into Dewan Sultan Iskandar this morning. I could feel the spirit of all good and positive energy from success graduated student flying and lock in my heart. Hopefully, in the next 3 years, i will proudly walk through the stage to receive my scroll from the chansellor. InsyAllah. God willing.
However, one thing that i couldnt forget . I am miss him so much. Definitely he is not amir anymore. Not amir. I'd deleted him. I replace him with some one worth to fight for. But i am to shy to let him know bout my feeling. I am to ego to tell him that i like him so much. Eventhough i miss him like crazy,..aaaaaaa. I will always pray to Allah to match me with some1 who able to guide and grow my love towards Allah, his messenger Muhammad SAW & His Nur Ad-Din. If he is the one, ( i do want him so badly) please Allah, help me. If there anyone better than him for me, make it easier for me, and it is not to much if ask it to in near time. InsyAllah.
Off all this doa, i always praise to Allah for giving me a good life. Good environment and surrounded by good and positive people. Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah. Thank you Allah. Syukur Alhamdulillah.
